BuLOnG

You’re slow if you don’t get it —
I don’t have a stand, I make one up
I reject yours to obey you
I negate to make us go somewhere & nowhere

Your touch is as soft as dissolution
I hunger for what I can’t wait to get rid of
I smile under my tears

As the hurtings swallow my pain through the night

Sleep, sleep, sleeping with you
I dream peacefully for a moment
Wide-eyed the next minute
Pain, panic, comfort, sleep comes again

A week of playing truth & a couple of a couple of days
With an objective so cruel, only devils can laugh
What I need, you act out
Help is a misleading concept

It’s different with my bastard
He can’t see through my intentions
Left in the dark
He is kept unharmed — he trusts

Sleep, sleep, sleeping with you
I dream peacefully for a second
Wide-eyed the next moment
Panic, pain, breathe harder, don’t die

You are too young, too selfish to play the game
Is it this or is it because –
I see your weakness?
Your dream to reinvent & be someone else?

But I’ll play along, let’s move backwards
& trace the future
Assume the role of the protagonist
I’ll hold you by the strings

Sleep, sleep, sleeping with you
You dream peacefully for a second
Wide-eyed the next minute
Panic, pain, breathe harder, you might die

You itch to keep your sanity
But you can’t deny the vanity
It consumes you –
For I am your new material

This is real strength
Eyes blindfolded, tables I turn
It’s a game I’ll win
Twenty million times over

Sleep, sleep, sleeping with you
You dream peacefully now
Submit to the power of sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping with me

(Under the influence of SPOONMAN)